Slow , imperfect perfection

I’ve recently, slowly….. been making rattles amongst my other activities.

These rattles are powerful tools which can be used for a number of Shamanic or Animistic activities and purposes – meditational journeying , clearing energy from spaces or people and for healing…These are multi use power-tools! They can certainly be used musically and ceremonially too and for sure can make people dance.

When I make theses rattles I keep things slow. It’s nice to work in time with the universe and when things occur naturally. As a results they take ages to make .Each piece of wood is ‘quested’ which means I go out with the intention to find a piece of wood which I can make something out of- when found gratitude and offerings are made.As a result each wood comes from a different source here there’s driftwood from Pembroke , Yew from Wiltshire , Beech from Ireland.

The deer hide is surplus from drum making – here three of the four rates are going along with drums.It is great to have a rattle made of the same skin as the drum itself.

The skins are carefully sourced from the U.K I but from from the keeper and have visited and spent time in the woodland the Deer roamed in.

The ‘rattles’ (the little objects which make the noise are equally quested) and come from a variety of sources too diverse on any cosmic customs form.

It’s a slow process – each stitch, each binding, each rattle and winding is imbued with intention, blessings and magic for the end user and just for the process itself.I may not necessarily share this with the owner as I fear it may disempower them in some way – its up to them how they use them. That said I can’t help adding intention or blessings or magic in as I go- these are ‘power’ tools .Powerful objects deserve respect and good powerful intentions.AS I said the magic is also in the process itself and in that process there’s so much magic healing and lessons which I am gifted – I guess this is my payment for which I’m so grateful for.

To give you one example one of these rattles took a whole day just to punch the holes in – so thick is the hide – it became a warrior tool – if I was using it it would be used to clear spaces and remove obstacles. On the handle I placed the Ogham symbol for Holly -Tinne in Gaelic. My personal meaning for Holly in this context is as an energy which aids in a war over negativity.

So…I wonder how this tool will be used?Well I know to whom it is going and through our initial talks and consultations I know this will be used with the drum to do great things.

Three of these will go with drums but I was minded to make one extra rattle using some red dear hide and a yew handle.As it became the fourth of these ‘wands’ I was of course minded of the tarot card which for many represents celebration , homecoming and harmony.So there’s my intention for whoever receives this one which will be given , gifted to someone/ f.o.c who may need it . I wonder where it will end up ?



I was recently sitting on a small moss covered stone bridge over a small but ancient meandering river.Just sitting watching the water move around the river plants while the sunlight reflected in shards on its surface.

After a while of sitting doing ‘apparently’ nothing-I kind of sank into a different kind of stillness.

The volume of my mind was turned down or even off while the volume around me increased.This was an active state not a passive state .I was being submerged into the surrounding trees, the babbling noises of the river and the river itself.

The cornucopia of sights and smells had naturally induced this state – I had no intention for this as such it just …happened .Sinking into the welcoming quicksand of the moment the colours and sensations softened whilst also becoming ultra vivid as my perception of reality gently shifted around this place as I sank Ito the place itself.

This was a state of deep stillness which naturally occurred and left me feeling camouflaged within the environment. A reminder that I wasn’t ‘in nature’ but that I am nature.

It was within the soft focus of this deep relaxation that the Kingfisher appeared . A madness of colour and motion gliding through the air like a multi coloured streak of luminescent oil paint .

So vibrant and so fleeting. Gone in seconds, in a blink .I wondered if it imagined ? Was it real?

When it was gone only a fading imprint the colour remained in my vision – though the memory was lasting , luminous ,vibrant and very powerful . A deeply imprinted vivid colour recording of that moment .An intense colourful memory of complete immersion.

An invitation to remember we are part of this place we are so lucky to inhabit for a short, fleeting time.

An invitation remember that all this is fleeting and all know this is real .

©TheShamansHorse/Sean Ryan 2021

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What the world needs now .

keep talking

Remember the start of the pandemic lockdowns when all the conversations seemed to be about the possibilities of the world we could make after this is all over ..?

How quickly this descended into arguments and division which has poisoned out communities.

It’s ok to disagree .Breathe and keep talking.
Don’t be divided.




The feast of Imbolc sits around the first of Feb and is the first of the three Sping festivals that sit on the Celtic Wheel of the year . Imbolc is associated with both the Goddess Brighid of the Tuatha Dé Danann, (Gaelic: “People of the Goddess Danu”) and the Christain Saint Brigid. In Celtic mythology the Tuatha Dé Danann were a race inhabiting Ireland before the arrival of the Milesians (the ancestors of the modern Irish).Brighit is known as the Goddess of healing as well as of the ‘flame and well’ ( the forge ) in fact all crafts and creativity, poetry and childbirth-she liked to multi-task ! The Christian Saint Brigid the patron saint of childbirth-herself said to be the daughter of a Druid in some folkloric versions of her story – who is also honoured here.

This is the perfect time in the wheel of the year to think about the seeds of our lives and what we should like to see and what we would like to be in the coming year. Can we plant the seeds of unity so our fractured, divided communities may come together? Can we plant he seeds and intention for a better world where we cherish what we have, celebrate the earth and our communities and foster equality for all?

During this time we can tune into the stirring earth , the rising sap, the catkins, birdsong , early shoots and although it feels like deep winter the signs of early spring are all around us if we care to look.

As seeds harbour the ultimate act of creativity ,life itself and Brighid is very much the nurturing feminine archetype of creativity. It was said in Irish mythology that he God Ogma gave the people Ogham script (the original Gaelic script) but it was Brighit who taught the people how to make the art poetry with it. I think this is a great time of year to actually create , make art , poetry as a way to both tune into the energy of the year and to express love for the Goddess and life itself. Within this process we can make creativity a sacred act of honorific spiritual expression which honours the energies of the earth and the Goddess and our true-selves.

It was in this spirit I created his image -as an expression of the season , celebrating the energies of new life stirring in the earth itself…of creation. I don’t see he Snowdrops as delicate symbols of the scared feminine – I see them ( as I do the sacred feminine ) as in possession of raw power – able to push through frozen soil and concrete with grace and ease.Within the ephemeral beauty of the Snowdrop we can also see a symbol of strength, determination and most of all hope.

Without hope …we have nothing.

To hope is to dream.

The season of Imbolc is a space to dream and dream again.

A space to plant positive intentions and plans so our future selves may reap the harvest of the seeds we planted.

What seeds will you plant ?


I always connect deeply to the work I am lucky to be able to do. Earlier this year, I was commissioned by a Kambo practitioner I know to paint a Giant Monkey Frog, aka a ‘Kambo frog’, for her new treatment studio space in North London. 

It was a special journey for me and as I’ve just delivered the painting to her I thought I’d share a little of the painting process. Kambo treatments are best described by the practitioners themselves but, in short, they involve a ritual during which the secretions of the Giant Monkey Frog – which is indigenous to parts of South America – are applied to small burns on your body in order to induce a purgative experience which is said to cleanse the body and reset its natural defences. The treatment has a host of other benefits but I’ll leave you to research those for yourselvesNominated for the Nobel prize, Italian scientist Vittorio Erspamer of the University of Rome wrote that this secretion contains a ‘fantastic chemical cocktail with potential medical applications, unequalled by any other amphibian’.   

It’s neither illegal, nor does it have any psychedelic properties. I’ve been receiving this magical medicine over the last four years (the last time was this February just before lockdown) and can vouch for its incredible therapeutic qualities, which I must say work for me. Ironically, I haven’t yet received the medicine from Anoushka, who commissioned the painting, but I wanted to capture the process of how the image came into being and how I made the painting become medicine in its own right, in order to support, enhance and enrich the treatments it will be witness to and hopefully help create. 

Had it not been for the pandemic, I would have received Kambo prior the creative process but as this wasn’t possible, I had to find other ways to connect to the medicine. The process started with a couple of hours on the phone with Anoushka during which I doodled and sketched – free styling whilst taking in the conversation. During our chat she told me of her experiences with what I will call from now on ‘the Frog’ when referring to the ‘spirit’ of the frog. It was amazing how we ‘vibed’ off each other, sharing stories of our experiences and our common connection with Greg at Sacred Tree Frog – who has facilitated my deep experiences with the Frog and who has also worked with and served Kambo to Anoushka along her journey. 

The below images are just a few of the initial visual thoughts and meanderings – a kick off of sorts – that I made during my initial conversation with Anoushka. 

Anoushka never asked to see any preliminary images, trusting in the process and understanding that I wasn’t just going to copy a photo of a frog from a book but that this was a co-creation between us and that I intended to ‘channel’ the image without knowing what was going to come. 

I remember Anoushka saying that she just wanted to receive what the frog wanted to show to us. The way we worked allowed me ultimate freedom to create and to trust the organic process. What followed was several weeks of drumming and mediating on my own connection with The Frog as well as contemplating the information and stories Anoushka had shared. 

Whilst journeying I would tune into some of my experiences including a mammoth Triple Kambo session (three treatments in one day) I had received from the expert hand of Sacred Tree Frog two years ago. Anoushka kindly sent me the Kambo stick (a piece of wood the Frog secretions are dried on for transport) she had used during her training and several other things she thought might support the process, including a piece of her chakapapa (a piece of the medicated incense stick used to make the burn marks); some Rape (a kind of sacred Shamanic snuff made of tobacco, ashes and herbs); some Paulo Santo wood (burnt as incense) and some ceremonial tobacco. This got lost in the post for a few weeks – which gave me time for contemplation, mediation and journeying. 

The next stage involved the creation of a few coloured images to ‘feel’ where the Frog might take me. I sent one of these preliminary sketches to Anoushka but regretted it as she loved it! I, however, knew there was more to come, so that was the last image Anoushka achieved until the painting was delivered. 

Rough image an elaboration on my notes ..

Playing with images as patterns – accidentally or sub-consciously creating what Anoushka would later comment on was possibly a portal into Kambo consciousness.

Then something more literal – closer to what I wanted to bring the inspiration into .

Initial image making .

This method of working came with some risk of course: In the back of my mind there was a little voice that whispered ‘what if she hates this?’ Here is that initial image, along with a few others I played around with. By this time September had arrived. I’d also been working on several other paintings and made some drums during that time. The canvas sat there staring at me… 

The next thought I had was to use some of the Kambo medicine on the canvas itself, mixing it with paint so it became an integral part of the painting. I put some drops of water on the stick and mixed the Kambo into some paint. Doing this really changed the atmosphere of my workspace – I instantly felt ‘woozy’, despite taking care with the medicine. I felt a faint nausea but also a connection to The Frog. Burning some Paulo Santo and using a rattle eventually led to the creation of a base layer. I just let it happen. 

Several journeys and layers later it looked like this …

Then a gap of some weeks elapsed as I sat with the canvas and asked The Frog how it wanted to appear. I knew the initial image I had shown Anoushka was to be part of the canvas – The Frog felt universally wise, mischievous, knowing and protective. Anoushka had mentioned that during her training she had felt a kind of supernatural wisdom she described as like ‘Yoda’ the popular archetypal wizard of Star Wars fame. But I also knew there were many more stories to tell and this was to be a canvas of storytelling, albeit abstract and meandering – I didn’t know where the stories were going or if they were ever to end. 

I used drums, rattles and an amazing Chakapa a friend made for me, which is now covered in the paint as I used it on the canvas in the process to attract and channel the images within the painting. 

There are many, many layers, and each one represented a painting session which lasted anything from 2 – 6 hours. I would drum, rattle, dance, sing, laugh and cry with this master. About halfway through I decided to burn some of the items Anoushka had sent me and mix the ash into the paint to further strengthen the bond she had with The Frog and the painting. At every point it was my ambition to create a painting that would be medicine in its own right – a tool that would help people on their own journeys with Kambo. 

Next came the second Frog – one that emerged from nowhere but who wanted to be shown peeking through the forest and gazing into the future with supernatural vision. He came really quickly, and I was worried he was too bright, too dominating. I tried to kind of ‘knock back’ the image with some darker colours but it was like there was some kind of force field around him! At one point I was flicking thinner paint at it and it was like it wouldn’t hit the canvas – so I had to trust that it was here to stay. That little Frog wanted to be seen! Another interesting thing happened when the silhouette of Anoushka started to show itself under the larger Frog – an abstract portrait of sorts. 

Creating this painting was a real journey for me over a period of five months – with too many stories to tell – stories which should be left for the viewer to extrapolate anyway. In early December I finally got the chance to drive up to Anouska’s practice and deliver the work. 

The rest of this story can only be completed by Anoushka. Here is what she has to say about the painting: “Seán is in a different league! The photo doesn’t do it justice to be honest: He’s creating medicine through art.” 

I’m so happy she feels that and I cannot wait to hear the stories that will hopefully come in the future and my wish is that this painting assists in healing, inspiration and transformation for many years to come.

The finished article temporarily in my kitchen for a quick picture before delivery .

Seek the advice of a professional before contemplating any form of Kambo treatment

Anoushka can be found at


Greg can be found at


All images ©Seán Ryan The ShamansHorse 2020

The Magician

The Magician

Knower,seer ,wizard and alchemist …TheMagician.

Gosh it is certainly a little ‘grim’ out there at the moment.Hopefully this might brighten up your day.It has certainly brightened mine.The other week when I was in Cornwall ( feels like about ten years ago now )I read a book which talked about the sounds under the seas and that possibly the song of the fin back whale is so powerful is circumnavigates the globe.This lead my imagination into a place where there’s a network of whale song lines under the seas- keeping us together-like a sub marine gravity sorts.The same book talked about the amazing ability the octopus has to adapt to its surroundings without using its brain.What a skill-If only I /we could circumnavaigate our brains and egos! That lead to my imagination running riot – what if the octopus was so magical it actually changed not just itself but its environment to suit itself – without even a thought.That would be something.Octopus …the magician.

The Magician is one of the major archetypes ( a collection of behaviours, ideas or in Jungian terms ” a primitive mental image inherited from the earliest human ancestors, and supposed to be present in the collective unconscious”. Also the Magician heavily discussed by Robert More and D Gillettes influential book, “King Warrior ,Magician, Lover.”

The Magician appears in so many cultural references such as Gandolf ,Yoda,Dumbledor and Merlin -the Magician knows how to work with all the elements and knows how to create new worlds and new experiences.

In the worlds of Druidry it is said there are three strains or types of Magic

-the Magic of Making

Is there anything more magical than bringing something into the world that didn’t exist before you imagined it ? The Magic of making includes making art , poetry , prose, story telling and crafts of all kinds.Growing plants and.. children .The magic of creation .

-the Magic of Seeing

The art of seeing things as they are and the unseen.Divination covering all kinds of modalities and practices from tree lore to Ogham staves to stone and cloud scrying.

-the Magic of Changing

The ability to change circumstances and energies.Spell craft and the traditional ideas of magic belong here.There are also other ways to influence the world through as counsellor and guide -think of the archetype of the Wizard Merlin advising King Arthur or the Druids who advised the chieftains of old .

It can be said that Magicians are healers ,wise-ones , seerers and knowers.

Most of all though – to me ..they are they the creators inspired by non ordinary reality. They take inspiration form the other worlds and bring creations or experiences or changes into this physical realm.

If we look art the classically known Images of the Magician through tarot we will find a lot of symbolism – it’s known as a card of mastery-of the master at his table able to use all elements to create his or her own world .

Usually he/she/they will be shown with representatives of the four elements(earth, air, fire and water ) and or tools to represent a sense of craft and mastery.

Most of all though – to me ..they are they the creators inspired by non ordinary reality thus in touch with the ‘trans-rational’. They take inspiration form the other worlds and bring creations or experiences or changes into this physical realm.In the Smith -Rider -Waite the Magician famously is shown with one hand pointed to the sky and one to towards the earth as if saying “as above so below”.

A friend of mine who is a Shamanic practitioner also uses the journeying process to gain messages and information. When she saw the above image of my ‘Octo – magus’ she told me she works with an Octopus spirit guide who is also a Magician going by the name …Houdini.Which makes Magical sense …to me .

The Magician-Tarot De Marseilles

2020 CARDS

I have been asked by so many people “why don’t you do cards ” and the truth is it took me ages to get around to it, to find the printers I wanted to work with , to select the cards I though might work .

Heres a video of the cards I have selected and please visit the SHOP page for more information and details to purchase .

Im really happy with the result – they are A5 size and printed beautifully on 100 percent recycled board in the U.K.

There are several purchase options on my site.

I hope you like them !